Thursday, August 16, 2018

What is a mother?

The definition of mother is: 


  1. a woman in relation to her child or children.

    "she returned to Bristol to nurse her aging mother"

    synonyms:female parent, materfamiliasmatriarchMore

  1. bring up (a child) with care and affection.

    "the art of mothering"

  2. dated
    give birth to.

    synonyms:give birth to, havebearproducebirth;
    archaicbe brought to bed of
    "she mothered two sets of twins"

    I have learned that while this is the very basic definition, the dictionary fails to actually give the true meaning of the word. So, I am going to give you the real definition.

    Baby, Mother, Infant, Child, Female, Happy, White, Joy


    A woman that constantly worries over the welfare of their child. Staying up until all hours of the night pacing, rocking, shooshing, jiggling, swaying, humming, singing and walking an upset or sick newborn. And even though she might long for the body she had before the baby, she wouldn't take it back if it meant living without the tiny bundle swaddled in her arms.

    A woman who's body has stretched, ached and transformed. Her once flat stomach may sag just a little or is covered in stretch marks.

    A woman that is the last to bed every night. She makes her way through the house, picking up toys that she knows will be drug out and scattered everywhere the minute those tiny feet hit the floor in a few hours. She walks through the house, making sure events, plans, bills, and lunches are ready for the following day. She is usually the last to bed and the first to rise. 


      A woman who cries or hurts when her baby hurts. She would give anything to take all of the baby's pain into herself.
    Baby Feet, Heart, Love, Mother, Motherhood, Toes

    A woman that has stubbed her toe, cut her foot, on tiny toys and would still walk across a bed of red-hot coals, run against shards of glass and wade through a pool of gasoline if it meant to make her child happy.

    A woman that goes for days without washing her hair, and only takes 5-minute showers in order to make sure baby and other children has food to eat and clean clothes to wear.

    A woman that spends endless hours pouring over homework that she doesn't understand to only google it and watch endless videos so she can help her little one succeed in school. She spends countless hours shuttling one kid from one practice, recital, rehearsal, game or padgent to another.

    A woman who tries so desperately to smile, even when she is exhausted. She gives freely her time taking care of everyone around her while neglecting to take care of herself.

    A woman that gladly gives up her desires for her family. She might miss her hair appointment because of a ballgame. She might miss the gym because someone needed extra cuddles. She might skip getting that manicure because funds are running short and one of the kids needs school supplies.

    A woman that puts her children and family above herself despite wanting just a few minutes more of sleep in the morning.

    A woman that takes a child into her care and loves and nurture's it as if it were her own. She's spent hours crying because her womb will never be filled with the fluttering kicks of a baby of her own. She opens her heart and home to a baby/child/teen that just needs someone to care for them.

    A woman that incites giggles over dancing in the kitchen with a spatula covered in cake batter or icing with a baby on her hip and one tethered to her leg.

    There are varying degrees and ideals of what a mother is. These definitions of a mother are what I see in my friends and the inspirational women around me!

    I'm interested in hearing your thoughts on motherhood and all it entails. What are your definitions?

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Tuesday, August 7, 2018


Today I have been scratched, punched, and screamed at. I've had a toy car speed through my hair and proceed to become tangled LIKE I TOLD HIM IT WOULD IF HE RAN IT THROUGH MY HAIR. 

Today, I've had fresh laundry dumped on the floor. I've had toys hurled across the room. I've had a pile of dirt I just swept up immediately scattered in a fit. 

Today has been a bad ASD day at my house. The weather is hot, humid, sticky, and a storm just blew in a bit ago. All of these things make days close to impossible.

Today, he's had surges of emotions that are all over the place. 

Today I cannot breathe. My lungs hurt because I am trying my hardest to not lose my cool. It's not his fault. 

Today, I am trying so hard not to sit in the corner and have my own meltdown. 

Today, he has gone through 2 pairs of pants.... which isn't as many as the dozen or so he goes through on a daily basis.

Today, I am having a hard time trying to figure out how to talk to him.

Today, I am trying not to fail as a mother of a special needs child.

Today, I have a migraine.

Today, I want to cry because I don't understand. I don't understand why this is happening to him. I don't understand how his mind works and it frustrates me which, in turn, frustrates and agitates him further. I don't understand how to communicate with him when he can't fully understand our conversations. 

Today, I want to give up, but know and understand that I can't. 

Today, I am drained.

Today, I am overwhelmed because all the books, articles, professionals, people I know, people I don't know, doctors, and experts are all telling me to do this . . . do that. . .  don't do this. . . don't do that . . .try this . . . don't try that . . . this is the reason this is happening . . . that's not the reason this is happening.

Today, I don't understand who is right, wrong, or indifferent. Who do I listen too when there are days like this? They all have conflicting advise or whatever.

Today, I wonder if I am to blame for this. Did I somehow do this to him while I was pregnant? Am I the one responsible for making his life difficult? Did I rob him of something?

Today, I realized that God has a purpose, and while I have no clue why or what he has in store, HE knows whats happening.

Today, is almost over so tonight I will lay my head down and thank God for this little boy that snuggled close just a few moments ago and whispered I love you. Tonight, I will sleep knowing that tomorrow will be a new Today!